Morbid

[jetpack_monkey]

I don't know why this thought struck me when it did, or why it struck me at all. I'd rather it hadn't. As I was closing my laptop before turning in for the night, it struck me. Someday, my mother will die and I'll have to go to her funeral.

I've always known that, of course. It's the first time I've believed it, though, and I'm really rather upset right now.

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[midnightfae.livejournal.com]

*Hugs* You could have woken me, if you'd wanted. Always know that, k?

I think about it a lot actually, though I don't talk about it. You can tell, because I get more defensive of my mom than I used to, and more flippant about her disability. It's why 'The Body' hit me so hard. She's not going to be around forever, and I can see the evidence of that...

*hugs* I know how you feel.

[jetpack-monkey.livejournal.com]

I know. But I was very tired and I'm better now. Although I can't seem to get ahold of Mom on the phone.

[midnightfae.livejournal.com]

*looks at the icon* Is that a hint? Do you want coffee? I'm about to head out the door (in about 15 minutes or so, so there can be coffee.

[jetpack-monkey.livejournal.com]

Nah, I just like the icon.